With my children basically out of the home,I have a lot of free time. The severe injury I suffered this past early summer and the after effects have left me struggling to get out. I want to go exercise and I have been a little. But my usual 4-6 mile walk is out of the question for now. I watch a LOT of HGTV and stay away from the news. But still the darkness seeps in and I feel it coming to stay for a visit lately...
I don't' really understand what causes this. It has improved vastly over the last 10 years with my medication and I am really lucky that I have that. I want to look at the world with eyes that see it in all its glory! I do occasionally have the moments when this happens but mostly, I am Eeyore from Winnie-The-Pooh. Even when I try to look on the bright side, there is a niggling worry.
I worry a lot. About all sorts of things. Things I can't even affect. The weather, my friends' children, the war in Afghanistan. I am anxious about even more. I tend to isolate and do things alone a lot.
Why am I rambling about all this? Because I think it is important to be honest about what is going on with us. I am tired of knowing my friends on a totally superficial level. I want to know how they feel about life, religion, God, people,pets...everything. So, bring it ON!
